Sad day...

Today was pretty sad.

After numerous attempts at combining Zumi with my new chinchillas, Zelda and Zinnia, I gave up. I was pretty much ready to take them into the humane society when I saw an ad on craigslist. A young couple was looking for some chinchillas. They came and took them home. They were really sweet people who love animals so I was glad to see them get a good home.

It's a little depressing, but that's not what's really got me down right now.

I am fat. I am so super fat. I've gained so much weight recently. I haven't gone down to the YWCA since last week. I keep meaning to but I run out of time or I forget. I keep eating junk food, too. I crave it madly. It's ridiculous. I hate what I've become. I'm so incredibly ugly. Ross says I'm beautiful and all but I'm beginning to wonder about his standards of beauty. He says I'm more beautiful now than when I was a senior in high school. What the hell? I was freakin' hot back then. How can anyone see a fat blob like me as beautiful? I sure as hell don't see it.

Sigh. I need to sleep.

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